Izzy whizzy lets get Fizzy

This week has been all about the fizzes. These fizzes are made with essential oils and botanicals, and they’re bound together with moisturising oils rather that water, making them amazing for the skin. I’ve had a gift set in the shop previously, that I was never really happy with – it just didn’t look elegant – so it’s been on my list of things-to-do to change it. I had an idea pop in my head so I ordered a couple of gift boxes, then I could have a play. Ta dah…

I love it so much! I’m amazed when something actually translates from my head to reality 😂. First time too 😁

They’re available in the shop now.

Impossibly hard thing…Grief, depression

I was going to write something entirely different today, but then I read something on Tiffany Han’s Instagram page last week that stopped me in my tracks.  She said

There was a time in your life when you spoke a sentence that changed everything.

There was a time in your life when you did the impossibly hard thing and survived to tell about it.

Those two sentences are one and the same thing for me – I sat and cried.  I cried because I can remember the exact sentence – “do you know how many times I’ve thought about killing myself?!”  This was said to my husband, my best friend, whom I’d been pushing away while really wanting him closer, while I suffered with post-natal depression coupled with anxiety.  I didn’t realise at the time, that that’s what it was, but the argument, which brought that sentence from my mouth, was my impossibly hard thing.

Admitting something is wrong is always the hardest step, but it is also the first step to moving forwards.  My depression/anxiety was caused primarily through grief.  If you’ve read my about page you will know that my Mum died, aged 50.  She’d been ill for a few months, having multiple tests, but no cause was found.  My hubby and I had also been discussing having another baby, as I’d always thought we’d have three, but we had stopped at two.  We’d finally decided that we would try for another one, then the bomb hit…they did the right test and found it was in-operable lung cancer.  We decided we wouldn’t share our plans as it didn’t seem the right time and that she’d have more important things to be thinking about, then she died 5 days later, the day after our first son’s birthday, and 4 four days before Christmas.  Complete devastation.  Ten months later, after deciding we would go ahead as that’s definitely what my Mum would’ve wanted if she’d known, our third son was born.  Sods law dictates that we’d fall pregnant straight away right!?  All the grief I’d hidden away as I didn’t want to distress a babe growing in me, came to a head over the following months.  Awful, awful months.  A black hole with a ladder that never went anywhere when you climbed it.  Tears – though not as many as you would think weirdly.  Dark thoughts.  Really dark thoughts.  Suicidal thoughts.

People talk more about mental health now, although not nearly enough, but at least they are starting.  My period of depression, once I’d said that sentence, ended once I’d had some medication, then a bereavement counselling course.  That helped so much.  And talking to my husband, not bottling it up.  My Mum died in 2005.  2005!  I’m not the same person I was before my Mum died.  How can we go back when something so huge and life changing happens?  We just have to try and go forwards the best we can, and ask for help, or talk to someone… say that thing.

My Own Cleanser Pads

Handmade Haven prototype cleanser pads with over locked edge, used daily.

When I first thought about trying makeup remover pads to go along side the soaps I had an overlocker.  I made a few, sent some out to a few friends to try and had a go with them myself.  I really didn’t like the raw edge that they had so back to the drawing board I went.  We now have the version you see in my shop now, which I absolutely love.

I still use all my original prototype ones myself, which also includes those when I’m testing new fabrics.  I even use them for removing nail polish, which does leave stains on the pads but I know they are clean …and who cares if there’s a rainbow on them any way 😝

I just throw them in the wash with my other whites, peg them on the line, then pop them back in the bathroom cupboard with my face cloths ready for next time.

Makeup remover pads, Handmade Haven, daily users

Organic Cotton Muslin Cleanser Pad, Handmade Haven

Zero Waste Makeup Pads

 

In the past year, following on from David Attenborough’s Blue Planet 2 program, there has  been an explosion of information about waste, and especially plastic waste.  The shocking images of wildlife with plastic in their stomachs or round their necks makes for incredibly shocking viewing.  When I first started making my cleanser pads, I used gutermann all-purpose thread which is actually polyester.  I’d never really given it any thought.  I knew I wanted to use organic materials, that was a high priority, so why hadn’t I considered the thread?!  Maybe it was the cost.  In the past year, I’ve had a few customers contacting me about it, so I decided to look into the cotton thread.  The cost comparison was virtually the same…yay!  This now means that once the pads have come to the end of their natural life, they can be composted, and every bit of it will break down naturally.  I will look at organic cotton thread in the near future too…in fact, I shall add it to my to-do list now.

Blogtacular entry band

Brain-Melting Blogtacular!

Blogtacular 2018 Kat Molesworth Hello

Wow!  My first Blogtacular!  What an absolutely amazing experience.  This was my first ever business conference and what a conference it was.

Handmade Haven at Blogtacular 2018

There was the opening Keynote speech by Tiffany Han then three workshops (I chose SEO, Pinterest then Instagram Stories) and then the closing keynote by Anthony Burrill.  By the end I felt completely exhausted but inspired.  The room was full of awesome business women – and a couple of men – who were all there to learn from and support each other.

 

 

When I got back to the hotel I felt overwhelmed so I  went for a walk round London for a couple of hours, then slept the whole night!  My brain has been whirring since…I’ve got loads of notes, loads more to add to my to-do list, loads of new things to learn, but I’m so looking forward to working through them.  Tuesday was the first day I felt normal again (sorry to anyone who saw me on the Monday on the plummet down!)

Blogtacular 2018, event photos

Blogtacular 2018 © Will Ireland